haix. the all styles martial arts just ended.
my left cheek hurts and my lips were cut.
i got a sliver medal but im not NOT happy at all.
i feel its a huge humilation to actually lose and still get a medal.
i fought wid someone 2 weight categories above me and lost.she got the gold medal and she is super conceited.wtf..i mean why would smeone actually feels proud of herself after losing to someone so much lighter than her.i think she can go and die.i see no pride in it.
haix..rather fight someone in my own weight category and win to get sliver.
at least i know that i won by substance, but not lose and get still able to get a medal.
such humilation cannot be accepted.there is no sense of pride or statisfaction in getting a medal.
haix.i wonder why my fren can be so happy after she lost but still recieved a medal.
i will train. train.and train.and win the medal by my own ability.i will not let down my laugong.my thai hometown and myself.hm..a bit political.but nvm..
at least i will feel proud and happier winning a medal in this manner.
*pr0miise mii ; to holdd mii titee -
today i shed tears..
fought wid darling.
but after tad had talk wid him.
hope everything will be alrite.
my kick boxing competition coming soon.
im gonna kick some ass.
and i mean it.
*pr0miise mii ; to holdd mii titee -
