haix..decided to change my blog song..tong hua..i listen le..ye ting ye shang xin...so i changed to this song..i duno understand wad it means..but lyk quite nice..its called si xin bu gai by twins i think..i duno la..i don really listen to chinese songs one..got a lot of songs i don even know existed la..lyk yesterday go ktv wid jolyn cherywn they all den realised i so lagg..terrible la..i lost my voice..got sore throat..wan2 sing also sing bu chu..haix..made a fool outta myself only..got my laptop today..i go meddle wid it..den i oso duno wad i do to it..stuck at the password page..den i off..lolx..terrible..first day only wan2 go spoil my com..i now lyk ah lian meh?? i not ah lian los..so don call mi xiao lian liao la..i only a bit chor luo..a bit vulgur..a bit..........aiya....i not Xiao Lian!!!...duno wad to say now oso..i got a lot a lot i wan2 say but duno how to say..i now got a lot of problems la..so much tad i duno wad to do..feel lyk becumin a vegetable..haix...my heart lyk broken into a lot alot of tinnie winnie micro pieces..feels as though if u are nt careful and go touch it again..it will immediately disintergrete into dust..and disappear into thin air..hurt too much..den somemore..i very tired..wan2 slp but duno why lie down only all the problems come into my head..den cannot slp liao...den sometimes no appetite eat..den got appetite only eat lyk some pig..if i feel lyk excercising only..will very fierce.....sometimes for no reason..or for lame reasons will feel lyk cryin..no...its not pms...i oso duno why liddat..probably insecurity ba..i think ive being hurt too many times until ive becum lyk so retarded liddat..the worst is even though i got short term memoryy...i duno why all those i don wan remember one i remember..all those things i wan2 to remember one..zhe me xiang ye xiang bu qing chu..why liddat??!!!....terrible lei.....haix...haix...haix.......forget it las..god has plans for mi.....i think i crazy liao..i duno why i lyk him la..sinclair tad day ask mi why i lyk him..i lyk tio stunned la..cos i duno why oso..haix...i think ying wei zhe jiu shi shou wei de jian dan ai ba..no need any reasons for it wan....haix..ai ta na mei sheng ye mei yong..he oso don lyk mi..but i will wait for him..wait for him to love mi back...wah lau..i duno why i soo stubborn la..know the chances of him lovin mi back only got 1%...but i still wan2 try..but if u don try..u will nvr knoe wad e results might be..maybe one day there might be a miracle..hahax..i hope so ba..wo hui yi zi ai zhe ni..haix...i wan to go back to the past lei..go back to tad day...and say i love u i love u i love uu.......face to face wid u on tad very day tad very night..but i know now its impossible to go back le..i missed my chance...why didnt i grab it??! i so stupid...haix..don worry...from now on i will treasure moment i can spent wid u..every msg u sent to mi..every word u say to me..i will treasure ur everything everything...as long as u not attached yet..i will not gib up..i love you so much...
btw...me and lester got nth on..we NOT together ok..he don lyk mi K..n i don lyk him..i don even tok to him now..n he don even tok to mi now..i no see him..he no see mi...so don anihow anihow say hors..
feel much better now..after bloggin..kk...i goin to slp le..tmr still got work..nites..or rather gd morning..
*pr0miise mii ; to holdd mii titee -
