Friday, April 29, 2005
haix..nowadays so tired..like not much slp..den everyday like some zombie liddat..i feel so old la..lyk no energy wor..den tad day benson trick mi go chalet..i stayed overnight..stupid cherywn make mi play stupid game wid him..den duno why i everytime lose..den he make mi do stupid things la..esp the one i wid ming jie playin too..btw..i think everyone at the chalet is retarded..cos they make so much noise..i wan2 slp they oso wan2 disturbx..luckily no gang bang..lolx..den Some..juz played mahjong the whole night..siao..den in the end slp awhile only los..btw..benson..thank u for takin care of mi the whole night..lolx..brudder lei..smoke oso share..food oso share..drinks oso share..even bicycle oso share..hahas..xin ku ni le..i so fat..bryan..don worry i will take gd care of ur jacket one...even though its already so smelly....hahas..den next day go work..wan2 die liao..i stand there look at customers den i doze off..head chef come ask mi don slp..i kana shocked and very scared la..cos he fierce wad..den i bluff him say my eyes pain..tads y close awhile..he stupid stupid believe me la...lolx......hm..........a bit disappointed wid one of my fren...cos supposed to meet him after my work..den he suddenly cannot make it..i take my time out specially to meet him somemore i so tired also wors...den he cannot..a bit pek chek..haix..nvm nvm..tmr..my last chance le..better at least close one case..haix..mood lyk a bit down..cos lyk tired plus stress..den now i so fat...haix..i miss a lot of pple lei..a lot of my fren i very long no contact..lyk lester..shumin..jasmine..hui qing..ah jo..tryphena..etc..haix..if anyone of u see this..pls pls..contact mi k? missed ya lots.....
giving someone all your love is not an assurance that he will love you back. don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in his heart, if it doesn't, be contented it grows in yours........
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes..........if you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go....Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together, or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together. you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back.........
i have learned.don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was Once Right next to YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........haix.......why i soooo stupid......i thinking of tad day again....when i let you go......didnt know i loved u soo much..
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
hm..today went back sch get year book..saw himm..see le xin ruan ruan..haix..he nvr even say hi to me..=X nvm..stupid eunice always say wan2 call wan2 call..in the end nvr call..liddat call fren ar?! how many times liao...wah lau..haix..forget it..duno wad to say bout her liao le..so stressed nowadays..got a lot of problems..duno how to solve..but..i will solve them..i will survive..lolx..i think im mad..insanity..ok..i gotta close 2 cases in 5 days..gotta work harder these few days..yupp yupps...
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
haix..decided to change my blog song..tong hua..i listen le..ye ting ye shang xin...so i changed to this song..i duno understand wad it means..but lyk quite nice..its called si xin bu gai by twins i think..i duno la..i don really listen to chinese songs one..got a lot of songs i don even know existed la..lyk yesterday go ktv wid jolyn cherywn they all den realised i so lagg..terrible la..i lost my voice..got sore throat..wan2 sing also sing bu chu..haix..made a fool outta myself only..got my laptop today..i go meddle wid it..den i oso duno wad i do to it..stuck at the password page..den i off..lolx..terrible..first day only wan2 go spoil my com..i now lyk ah lian meh?? i not ah lian los..so don call mi xiao lian liao la..i only a bit chor luo..a bit vulgur..a bit..........aiya....i not Xiao Lian!!!...duno wad to say now oso..i got a lot a lot i wan2 say but duno how to say..i now got a lot of problems la..so much tad i duno wad to do..feel lyk becumin a vegetable..haix...my heart lyk broken into a lot alot of tinnie winnie micro pieces..feels as though if u are nt careful and go touch it again..it will immediately disintergrete into dust..and disappear into thin air..hurt too much..den somemore..i very tired..wan2 slp but duno why lie down only all the problems come into my head..den cannot slp liao...den sometimes no appetite eat..den got appetite only eat lyk some pig..if i feel lyk excercising only..will very fierce.....sometimes for no reason..or for lame reasons will feel lyk cryin..no...its not pms...i oso duno why liddat..probably insecurity ba..i think ive being hurt too many times until ive becum lyk so retarded liddat..the worst is even though i got short term memoryy...i duno why all those i don wan remember one i remember..all those things i wan2 to remember one..zhe me xiang ye xiang bu qing chu..why liddat??!!!....terrible lei.....haix...haix...haix.......forget it las..god has plans for mi.....i think i crazy liao..i duno why i lyk him la..sinclair tad day ask mi why i lyk him..i lyk tio stunned la..cos i duno why oso..haix...i think ying wei zhe jiu shi shou wei de jian dan ai ba..no need any reasons for it wan....haix..ai ta na mei sheng ye mei yong..he oso don lyk mi..but i will wait for him..wait for him to love mi back...wah lau..i duno why i soo stubborn la..know the chances of him lovin mi back only got 1%...but i still wan2 try..but if u don try..u will nvr knoe wad e results might be..maybe one day there might be a miracle..hahax..i hope so ba..wo hui yi zi ai zhe ni..haix...i wan to go back to the past lei..go back to tad day...and say i love u i love u i love uu.......face to face wid u on tad very day tad very night..but i know now its impossible to go back le..i missed my chance...why didnt i grab it??! i so stupid...haix..don worry...from now on i will treasure moment i can spent wid u..every msg u sent to mi..every word u say to me..i will treasure ur everything everything...as long as u not attached yet..i will not gib up..i love you so much...
btw...me and lester got nth on..we NOT together ok..he don lyk mi K..n i don lyk him..i don even tok to him now..n he don even tok to mi now..i no see him..he no see mi...so don anihow anihow say hors..
feel much better now..after bloggin..kk...i goin to slp le..tmr still got work..nites..or rather gd morning..
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
wah/...i feel lyk fuck manx..i happened to be clearin my hotmail acct..den i read everything tad i cleared la..den..wah kao..saw all the msgs me and my ex used to send each other..read liao..don feel lyk fuck also feel lyk fuck..if already feelin lyk fuck..will becum even Fuckier la..i faster faster delete all the msgs mans..wah kao..cant believe we last time fight so much still can together for so long..i duno how i tahan him one la..somemore is lyk all the fights were so pathetic la..all becos of jealousy and lack of trust la..bloody hell..read liao also dulan..somemore..i cant believe we last time so petty one la..terrible sia..fuck la..he keep sayin i lie to him la..ask him whether he love mi..everytime change subject..kao..read le also....ArghhHHHHH........fuck it fuck it...break wid mi so many times somemore..break my heart lyk its mendable..i duno why last time i can stand him la..i don even feel loved la..okok...stop readin..stop....STOP..
my bloody com damn irritatin sia..keep givin me so much problems..throw away la..
haix........i lyk some volcano erupt liddat...mood damn fuckin bad la..work oso work until lyk fuck...everything is lyk so screwed up...............the guy i like don like me..but lyk somemone else..always liddat one la..u lyk one..also cannot get...don lyk one..always easy to get..the world is nevER FAIR.....yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just wan euuuu.....why cant i jusst hab u??i will promise to love u wid all my heart..damn it...y do i always fall in love wid da bad guys...wei she me...why why why??? i make my own life miserable only..but i knoe tad..but still go fall in love wid bad guys..haix..i think im a hopeless nutcase la..but nvm....no matter if u are by my side a not..i still love u..i will contiune to love you till someone else can manage to steal my heart away lyk u do..which i think need a miracle for tad to happen..haix....feel lyk clubbin now..at least i can dance and forget my troubles for a moment...burn mother fucker...burn.....
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
argh...feel damn down nowadays..feel lyk shit la..went sparks 2 days ago wid crystal and ver..den got fight..we go watch for fun..den went back sparks again.techno tad night..i dance lyk crap la..too tired le cos i went after work..crystal not bad ar..can dance..haha..got police come tad nite..i guess its pretty much normal..cos everytime i go also got police come wan..after tad..i very lucky..my dear dear ron..who is soo so nice..come down to town just to fetch me home in a nice nice comfortable car..my legs were killin me after dancin da whole night in heels..terrible..lolx..wad a sweet guy..thanks!
yesterday was so horrible..i went to meet sinclair after my work..den i think i smoked too much kana asthma attack..my whole was lyk goin numb la..my asthma puff lyk no use wan..use le still so pain all over..luckily never go into coma due to lack of oxygen.took a panadol from sinclair's fren and felt a bit better..den he sent mi home..im so sorry sinclair..always gib you so much problems one..sorry..i feel so bad mans..next time i wid u..i will try to take extra care..so wont gib u so much trouble..im soo terrible mans..i don feel lyk writin le...cos i feel damn crappy..someone pls hold me..cos im losin myself..stupid da huai dan..miss u lei..y u liddat one??!!..haix...fan si ren le...
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
hm..im sooo soooo dead..im lyk freakin overweight?!! oh no..terrible..i seriously put on weight a lot..but everytime i tell someone tad..no one believes me..they say "leepeng fat?..impossible.."..but its da truth..im fat now..and its a F-A-C-T..im really overweight..believe mi mans..haiz..i wan2 go cut my weights le..so i decided to go swim tmr..maybe go gym..or jog..anything just to lose weight..i look so horrible now..and anyway..i cut my hair..yes..i did..really la..nvr bluff u..and i look lyk so horrible..yes yes..u all will say.."horrible?..don hab wad...how terrible can it get??!"..but seriously...its horrible.tads e truth.i look lyk some china doll.u get wad i mean? china doll.
terrible..nowadays no mood. im single. alone. bored.
i need some excitement mans..
tell me about it baby..im free after 10pm..
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
haix..so bored..after work..go straight home again..i wan2 go out..liddat..everyday go work..come home..i will go mad one la..its lyk no life at all..no wonder so many of the pple at my work place are mentally unstable..and im Serious..got one guy came out of woodbridge..terrible lei..i work there oso scared la..all the crazy pple..i scared l8r i go mad wid them oso..haha..i think i already am mad..i keep goin cookie here cookie there..icecream here..icecream there..and i keep sayin terrible..horrible and vegetable..so terrible..haha..today met elin durin my break..so long never see her cos she went aust to study..haha..she came my restuarant eat wid her parents den after tad went out wid her..we bought a lot of sweets to eat..den took neoprints..so horrible..got one picture i got da sparstic look..lolx..so terrible..and vegetable..everytime i look at it.i will laugh la..lolx..btw..i gettin fatter and fatter by the day..terrible..and i cant stop eatin..HOw?!! i got tummy liao la..den my face round round..not pretty le..lolx..i not even pretty in da first place..ok..haix..still i wan my small small face back..not a big big round round one..haix..stupid resturant la..why must they serve us such goOd food?!?!! make mi eat so much..somemore there the pple pamper mi..treat mi eat ice cream..coOkies..lolx..see la..now so fat..horrible..
btw..today i saw someone who look so much lyk lester at lakeside da bus stop..my heart almost stopped beatin la..i was lyk thinkin wad da hell is he doin here..lolx..i tot he soo nice..finally wan2 come and visit mi..hahas..my wishful thinking..lolx..i almost wan2 go and di siao him la..luckily i look carefully at his face first..if not i sure die one..cos he not lester...ahahahas..he more suai than lester mans..damn it..he looked into my eyes la..almost got electrified..den he keep starin at mi la..i fasster walk away..hopin tad he doesnt notice tad i wanted to go and di siao him..i was so near..heng ar..yesterday went pubbin at holland v till late late..den my dad came to catch mi go home..cos i late late still no go home again..so funni..i even can joke joke..ask him join mi and frens drink together..i lyk wan2 qi si ta..lolz..im such a terrible girl..terrible..
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Friday, April 08, 2005
today went play pool wid qihao..terrible lei..i lost a lot la..he bluff mi say he suck at it..actually he pro la..terrible..lolx..we went to eat after playin pool at cine basement..chatted quite a lot..can say got to know him better la..since the last time i met him..he lyk become thinner while i become fatter..horrible..lolx..i must eat more vegetables..ahahaahs..okok..enuff of the terrible..horrible n vegetable jokes..had enuff of it at work..joke sia..btw..qihao..good luck for ur test..don anyhow anyhow do cpr hors..((: and study the structure and functions of the heartxx more..^winks~
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
i hate you..i hate you..how can u do this to mi?!! bloody bitch..don u even have a bit of intelligence and ren qing wei left in you?..wah lau..we USED to be good frens la..now?! don gib me wad-so-ever crap tad u are to0 scared to tell me..or u don wan2 hurt my feelings..u hurt my feelings more by not tellin mi laR..bitch..i forgive u cos u usED to be my good fren..if not i see how u die la..by the way..i not as mean and petty as you..i wont bite u lyk u do..don think i always give in to you because im weak..its becos u r younger than me..i let you have ur way..bloody hell.i didnt think tad u will climb over mua head.i had enuff of all your nonsense la..u push me one more time over my limits..im going to be nasty.don think i cant be nasty too..tell u the truth..i sometimes cant stand ur arrogant..al'mighty..pretend-to-be-NicE..you..u r sometimes so fake la..always act so high class..fine..u can be considered high class cos u r from a above average family..but u always appear so nice in front of pple(esp in front of GUYS)..den become a monster when they turn their backs..i saw dis side of you when we were close frens la..haix.duno wad to say la..maybe only a few times only la..but tads bad enuff..u probably think im talkin crap..and Deny everything..and go blah-blah-blah on and on..on wadever..and say tad im worse..den blah blah blah..i just don understand u..y must u be soo stubborn.cant u just stop pointin fingers at everyone and listeen to wad others got to say bout u..at least try to be nice and STOP makin use of other pple..oh..so sorry...i forgot u r already a NICE..
wadever..damn pissed off..where is the nice i used to knoe?!
i go back school visit..u lyk don gib a shit la..busy talkin to guys or playin wid guys..i sit there so long..nvr even bother to come and chat wid me..i duno la..i think our frenship goin to end here la..i hab enuff..i ask u go out..always cannot..meet u..nvr bother bout me..talk to you..u always busy wid sth else..tell u the truth..im also quuite fake los..
i lie to you before..when i told you i don like him anymore..haix..wadever..im sorry shane..i know u may be readin this..fine..im a bloody bitch too la..well..at least im single now..i wont be hurtin anyone..anymore..until im attached again..i think im jinx mans..best is to stay single..i cant take anymore heart breakin anymore..
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Monday, April 04, 2005
tired..haix..got caught in the big big rain today..
so i think im lyk sick now..so so tired..i wish my prince charming will appear in front of me now and hug me to sleep.....
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
hahas..today so stupid..go work..so early for the first time juz to make my lau da there happy..but mei xiang dao..nvr bring locker key..bloody hell..den make them pek chek instead..lolx..den durin break...went cine..den walk walk around wid moi darlin min..ate pastamania..den i damn budget la..cos broke liao wad..i ate bread only..saw jasmine..tok awhile..
den after that went downstairs to see wads the buzz about..den saw fiona xie..sharon aw and guy..so cool..fiona xie so pretty..everything bout her lyk so perfect sia.i wish i can be lyk her..btw..her figure damn gd sia..*jealous* lolx..after tad we went outside cine to hab our butts picture taken..lolx..so funni..got some stupid free goodie bag which the most valuable thing is a cup..we walked down to hereen buy sweet..den i kept dreamin of my prince charmin la..hopin and hoping he would dropp down from the sky..hiax..dreaming again~~~
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我(愿/要/会)变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局
haix..i now feel very pek chek...stupid lester..screw him wid a screw driver la..poke it up his ass...asshole...humpf..don wan2 talk to him liao..he pian ren de..bluff mi..humpf..
anyways..when for aduition today for some raintree production rubbish..hahas..go there play play for fun oso song..so many chio bu..lolx..btw..i pierce my nose today..bloody hell..so pain when she poke la..KNN..i almost wan2 whack her away la..so pain...luckily i tahan..she change my stud to small small one so tmr go work wont kana..go home parents wont notice so fast..so i wont get Killed..bleed so much when she changed..haix..wad am i?? i lyk not gd..not bad..juz do all those stupid stupid things for fun..i think i bonkers man..
my prince charming...where are youuu?? i waitin to create a fairytale wid u..together..plz appear..so we can hab a happy endin together..
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